So many days have passed since I was active on DA, at a time I was lingering in depression and deep thoughts of the meaning of life. Things have changed, I am still very much happy in love with my boy. Eh yes, in case you hadn't noticed before, I am homosexual, which is part of why I'm so fuckin angry at the moment. We live in a time where a black man can be a presidential candidate, and hopefully the next president. A time in which popular artists can be openly gay, and yet not lose an inch of their popularity, but it is still not possible for me and my boyfriend to display signs of affection in public without getting shouted at, called names (take a guess which), and physically attacked. Believe me, we tried.

Not that I am openly gay at home, and at school just a little, but a few weeks back we were at a fairly large mall in Central Florida, along with my boyfriend's mom, who is aware of our relationship and approves. She went her way, and we ours, and had lunch at the food court. When we were done eating, I wanted ice cream for dessert, but wasn't really hungry anymore, so we decided to buy one cone and share it. This, being longtime lovers and having been intimate many times, we did quite passionately, and our tongues met m as the ice cream slowly disappeared between our lips, and in the end, there was nothing left but our passion for each other. Cute? you may think so, but not to a bunch of guys with gold chains and low pants. Name calling started and we decided to leave, hoping to continue our day of shopping. But, they followed us around and, in a corner of the mall, where two stores were closed and no people were around, they blocked us. Then a series of unpleasant verbal exchanges took place. I cannot control myself when I get cornered, and I have a way with words, which may have worsened the situation. Whatever, in the end we just got beaten up, until some people came along and our attackers ran off.

Now here is the thing; one of these people who came to our rescue had also been in the food court, and you know what he said? "You guys shouldn't be kissing each other, that just angers people..." I mean, what the fuck? I have no right to kiss the one I love? But all over the fucking mall you see guys and girls kiss? The world is not ready yet for gay people, certainly not for underaged gay people, and it fucking pisses me off. I am who I am, and cannot be changed by anyone, just because it doesn't please some people.

Anyway, I haven't been on here in a longass time, because my password didn't work and when I did the retrieve password thing I never got the email, until this morning. I'm home, because for the first time since I'm with Chris, I am sick. This is a record by the way, I used to get sick at least once a month, so I guess it proves love does change someone, even physically. Yes, I have grown, finally. I'm not a big guy yet, but at least I'm headed in the right direction. I have a sense in life now, I know what I have and what I want. If only this fucking world would accept me for what I am, starting with my parents... (I don't want to get into that now)

I'm not sure what to do with this DA, because when I created it, I was a different kid. I deleted most of my deviations, because they are nothing but ghosts of my past, and only hope I won't see someone else use them as his. I might submit new stuff, but it will be very different from my previous entries. Maybe I'll just hang around here, to check on you guys from time to time, because I love art even more than before, and some of the things on here just move me so much, I don't want to miss that.

I support Obama, because I believe he is the only man who can truly change things. McCain is really too old, look at him, more than the frontal view, when you see him from the side, you see a really old guy, who might not even live another 4 years. And then what would we get? A hockeymom who firmly believes that the end of times is near? And you want to give her the nuclear codes? No way! She should stay in Alaska, and shoot at moose if she wants, but not at alleged enemies, and destroy the world. The world is fucked up enough as it is, and needs some serious healing. I want to live in a world where people are not afraid of each other. A world where people are accepted for who and what they are. A world where you don't have to worry if the next day you still have money in the bank. A world where I can kiss my boyfriend in public and see people smile, instead of getting punches. A world with only love, and where hatred is no longer welcome.